Isn't it sad when you realize...

Isn't it sad when you realize that things are not the way you have pictured them your whole life.

When relationships with the people you always thought of as your closest companions is not anything like what you have always assumed?

The horrible alone feeling when you realize how much is purposely kept from you, and the worse feeling you get when you have to pretend you do not know about these things time and time again.

Or how about that feeling of knowing no one wants to talk to you about anything anymore. That's a good one too.

I am tired of being looked over. I'm tired of feeling alone. Did I do or say something to make me untrustworthy? Have I complained too much? Do people not like responses I have or advice I may give?

God.. even being told "you suck and I hate what you have to say" is better than "Shhh.. Don't tell Heather"
Or
"let's ignore these wet floor signs and walk right where she is mopping"
Or
"What she doesn't know won't hurt her"

I have few people left that talk to me and I can tell you they are not the ones I thought years ago would be my closest friends.